♥Forever

 7月16日

 

我永远都不会忘记这一天

 

你们对我的伤害

我哭，我抛药圆，我尝试脱离这里...

 

那点点滴滴的伤害，恐惧感

我一辈子不会忘掉

从小到大的每件事，从来不曾在我脑海里消失。

 

躲在角落，等待你们关心。

只要摸下我的头，告诉我说 “不要怕，我保护你。”

抱住我说 “疼不疼。”

抱住我让我哭。

我会点头不哭。

我会说完真相出来。

说完我的感受。

 

可是，我失望了。

你们没这样。

你们连看多我一眼的冲动都没有。

我恨你们。

我听见你在咬瓜子的声音。

你没有来扶我。

 

 

那天告诉了我。

我会离开这个家。

我不想见到你们。

 

手臂受伤，头部瘀青，嘴角边的伤口。

你们的吵架声。

 

 

 

 

 

我永远记得你们的样子。

 

 

♥If

 

I can't control my mind.

I keep on told myself, "I hate them"~

I try to let go before, but i change my mind suddenly.

I really felt sad and started think negative.

I am not dare to hurt myself. Ouch~

Really pain~ I am scare.

I scare that 1 day i really kill myself.

But, who care me? Really wanna that day come true than they all will say those stupid idiot thing.

 

I know i can't give up myself now~

I have a lot of thing haven done yet.

=(

 

Really can't imagine what i will do later~

 

 

 

真的好累～

或许别人会说我很虚弱，很容易被影响。

可是我真的控制不到自己。我不懂我下一步要做什么？

周围的环境压得我透不过气。

我觉得自己很空虚，很想出去，不要面对这些东西。

 

我的心很窄小，很多东西看不开。

我承认，真的是我的问题。

 

很想有一天让我的想得通，让我觉得其实可以活得很轻松。

也许会有这一天。真的希望会‘也许’。

做善事真的让我觉得很轻松。带了一种希望。

让我觉得我的人生并不可悲。有人比我还更惨。

可是心结还是打不开。有些事情我真的很想永远隐藏起来。

没有人知道，也不会有人知道。

 

 

 

让我静静想想吧～或许我会想得通。

 

  

 

饥饿30～我来咯～ 

 

 

 

♥Time

 

Time pass too fast.

Now already July.

 

Yesterday went out with Dear liiu.

She is cute =)  and skinny too~~~

 

 

Maybe she will dates me out on this Sunday.

Wee~~~

Damn happy.

I want to cut my messy hair.

And stop to gain my weight~ Omggg~~~~~

 

Criss, liu 's hubby.

He is bad.

I can't stop eating when hang out with him and her.

Every time treat me eat steamboat, BBQ, Mc and bla bla bla~~~

**Forget to tell, he will treats me to eat BBQ on this Sunday~

 

 

Happy or sad?

Eat or not eat?

Go or not go?

 

 

Hahaha =)

 

 

 

Weeee............

Later need to tuition.

Mummy forces me to have it >.<~~

 

 

 

 

 

**Byeee-Biiiiii~~~~~~~

 

 

 

♥Dream?

 

I never have a dream come true~

 

 

Suddenly feel like wanna CRY~

T.T...When that my dream will come true?

Nothing can let me do well~

Stupid~~~~~~~~~~~ 

I am stupid...

>.<~~

 

 

Next week wan to pass up my moral essay.

SHIT~~

8 essay, some more wan to finish the pow point~

Let me DIEEE~~

 

 

Started to drink the coffee this morning.

Hope to see the result after few week.

 

 

 

**Sayonara...

 

 

 

♥Passed

Finally my weekdays had gone.

Tomorrow still need to go to school.

Actually school's life are boring. But i must go to~

 

Today is working day.

Felt like sleepy. Damn!

Yesterday drank a lot of WINE~

Weeee~~~

I like the smell and taste of Wine.

Sweet Sour Sweet Sour =)

 

My father acted like monkey yesterday.

Something wrong with him?!

I don't really know.

I know that he likes to spoil everything include every good moment.

Sometime i feel that " I HATE HIM".

But i can't.

 

Anyway, he still is my father.

I should forgive him every time.

Agree??!

 

 

I should tell and force myself to be more nice. =)

Cheer up, Ashley~

 

 

 

Further more, i can have my laptop next week.

I will be using second-hand laptop.

My aunt's laptop.

Anyway, I have my own laptop.

Hahahahaha =D

 

Finally i have my own laptop.

Although it's not what i want.

lalalala~

Super happy. =)

 

 

 

 

Yupp~

Time to sleep.

I miss my lovely cutieee~ bed.

And my doggie too~

 

 

Good night♥

 

 

 

♥Tuition

I have my new tuition class now~

uuuhooo~~~

Almost all of my classmate there.

hahaha~

Not bad.

Now is time to push my add maths and maths to A.

Fatty Chin Seong had scared high mark than me.

I am jealous >.<

Haha~

 

Later i have to go to extra tuition class.

Oh Mannn~

There is really very cold.

1 mini room but has 4 air-conditioner.

So today I become clever.

I bring my jacket. =)

 

 

School life is boring~

I hope that i am go in to college as fast as possible.

Cheer up, Ashley~

 

 

Go for tuition now~

  

Byeee~  

 

 

 

♥Bad or good?

Finally i went home safely now.

My brother's driving skill is too cacat~

God bless me~~

I am safety now =)

 

 

Today is a very boring day.

Still the same, wake up-->school-->home-->on9-->sleep.

Boring, right?

 

 

 

Hahaha~

I have already enjoy it for a long time.

 

Later maybe go to SKY's house eat Durian~~

Wowowow~~~
Nice mood now.

=) 

 

 

 

Sometime i feel that i enjoy my life.

But, sometime i feel that i am lonely =(

I have being single for a long time.

How come??

I don't know tooo~~

So bad.

 

 

 

 

Finally...

 

 

 

I realise that I am not good enough~~

 

 

=(

 

 

♥这一天

 

又一天了，今天本来可以决定了一件我梦寐以求的事。

可是，我放弃了。

我决定明年才打算。

有成熟点吧 =)

 

 

Finally i have renew something here~

i know there are not much people view or read my blog~

But i feel that more relax to say out my pressure, stress and whatever.

Now, i would like to have good result in my next exam.

I know i make my mom dissapointed~

 

SORRY~~

 

I felt so sorry to you.

I think i need to meditate myself.

 

 

OMGG~~

I must find some one to force me~

I want to become more nice.

 

Polite?!

Beautiful?!

Mature?!

Sexy?!

Thin?!

Hardworking?!

 

There are too much thing waiting for me to complete it.

I am not good enough =(

 

Too bad...

 

 

 

 

 

I will try my best =)

 

 

明天会更好~~